A Tug and a Tear :'(

I put that tacky emoticon up there just so you would know it was the word “tear” like from your eye, not “tear” like what a paper does.

But since I explained it so thoroughly, as good poetry never does, I don’t need that emoticon after all. Oh well. It’s there now.

A Tug and a Tear.

Sometimes an element from my story tugs, as if it’s trying to escape, as if it knows it is being called to another life, away from my story. Sometimes, when this happens, I let it fly away without another thought. Sometimes, I can’t bring myself to let go. Sometimes a part of my story is too close to my heart, too intrinsic to the heartbeat of the puppy-love stage long ago. I feel that if I let it go I would be losing some of my life.

Recently, I let go a major element of my story that had been a pet peeve since the beginning. It really hurt. But I know it had to go.

Now it feels like it’s about to happen again. This time, I’m really not sure I can do it. A tear rolls down my cheek. I tell the idea that it has to stay. Please stay. I would be devastated if you left. Isn’t there a way you can make a home in this story? Isn’t there a way for your timeline and blueprint to integrate into and make sense of my story? There must be a way. Just give me a few more days. Don’t leave yet. Please stay.

Another tug. Another tear. 😥

I know, I know it would be easier if you left. But maybe the hard work of finding a place is worth it. Just give me a few more days.

Tug. That was softer. Maybe, just maybe, my idea will stay.

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